Cuz you can’t Change what you don’t Acknowledge. Because it’s the Heart that must be changed - and if you believe that - if you realize your own Heart’s became callous/cynical - then there’s Hope. When my hard-heart finally began to soften all of these years. But there came a moment in late Act Two when I began to understand, get it. Isn’t that all we need to know? That something «feels right» from the jump? Stage one and Stage two were a bit ugly - had an argument with the front office, mouthed-off, voiced disapproval at constant jabs at the world of psychology. Knew I needed this and that it worked for me from the first moment I walked in. So my transition to the Calvary, and to Christianity - came in stages - but I never quit, never gave up - assumed it was me and I merely needed clarification. The Pastor often upset me with references to psychology, child rearing, do’s and don’ts - he’s someone that speaks his mind and, in X’s own hilarious words, «Gets a lot of letters.» He forever pleads not to send him any, any angry letters - after a terse sermon against things such as Same-Sex-Marriage - or our weakening Global partnership with Israel - our greatest ally. Ah, but the Calvary Chapel! I’m not going to lie and say this was an easy transition for me. Fearing I could find a second partner at that time/age. Then a teaching position was taken away (all the state cuts CA suffered through from 06 – 09). That I would survive the passing trauma and storm, get through the divorce, which was something exceedingly difficult to decide upon. So the following Sunday I went - and knew from the very first worship song, «How Great Is Our God,» that there was nothing to fear. She cited the Pastor, Xavier Ries, who was known through-out the Christian World as a fierce defender of Christian values, change, the hearts’ role in any demise in which we’ve suffered - she gave «X» five stars - out of a possible four. Directed me to the closest Billy Graham affiliate she could find (she was based in Tennessee), i.e. So after the TBS special I called the 800 number on the screen, and a loving Christian came on, a woman. I was so moved by what Billy said - how Billy said it - Billy’s conviction … I knew I had to find more out, as in 2006 I was going through divorce, turmoil, chaos, career indecision and terror. Ah, yes the Calvary Chapel of Pasadena - what a joy !!! I was led to the Calvary Chapel by a Billy Graham TBS special.
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